5.2 He broke my heart and kept it

Levi:

Not only did I lose love, I lost a friend. But it’s understandable why Andy doesn’t want to see me anymore. First I kissed him but when he opened his heart, I rejected him. All these superficial relationships, it’s not my style at all. I don’t like flirting. I don’t like dating. I’m out of that scene for a while.

My sister is more lucky though. At my birthday party she seemed to hook up with my friend Matthew. I was happy for her. Matt is a good guy.


Actually, I made a hasty conclusion. She’s had her fair share of problems too.
Before she started going out with Matt, there was something going on with her and the Bloom brothers. The Bloom brothers was in my class in high school. Both Aidan and Scot started hitting on her. I knew Scot had a crush on her because I could tell in the way he looked at her…

But then she messed everything up by making out with Aidan at a party…

This was before she was dating with Matt, I want to emphasize. At least they weren’t official yet. The problem was Aidan was dating Maya.

Oh, Maya was furious. She was yelling like crazy.

Liv was very regretful afterwards. She asserted it didn’t mean anything. She had no feelings for Scot at all. I doubt she’ll ever be friends with Maya, though. And Scot, poor Scot. He rejected her later…


I think Scot is fine now, anyway. Last time I spoke to him he had a girlfriend. Maya and Aidan broke up later, but I doubt it’s just Liv’s fault. I know for a fact Aidan is a ladies man and wasn’t ready for a relationship at that time. Maya deserves better. And so is my sis’.
…
Liv has calmed down considerably. She has a boyfriend and is also determined to get become an astronaut one day. She’s decided to join the army as soon as she turn 18 and has suddenly become interested in mechanics, electronics and… Lo and behold… exercising!

…
This is my sister now:

She’s 18 and more beautiful than ever. She celebrated her birthday without me. She went away on a weekend trip to Paris with mum. I’m so happy the finally seem to find real friendship in each other. And it was in Paris Liv found her new look:

I’m so proud of my sister. She’s in the army, and I have to admit I didn’t believe in her from the beginning. She has never been into sports, never showed any interest in other stuff that books and arts. And boys. She looks great in her uniform.

And Liv and mum gets along pretty well nowadays. They like art, both of them, and the visit the art gallery almost every weekend.

I’m not quite sure they watch a lot of art. They seem to chat and gossip more.
…
Me on the other hand, prefer to spend time at the gym. My routine is the same. First 20-40 minutes on the treadmill, then I pump iron, I alternate different muscle groups between my sessions, and I usually finish with swimming. Sometimes, if it’s not to late, I go outside to relax and just enjoy the feeling of a good workout suit.

It was a Wednesday, my day off and I had spent about three hours at the gym when my phone rang. I didn’t recognize the number at the display and answered.
It was Hans. My ex boyfriend Hans, who I hadn’t spoken to for almost three years.

I was in shock.
“How are you?” He asked tentatively.
“… I’m fine.” I knew I sounded short cut. “How are you?”
“I’m fine. I’m working on my thesis… in a couple of weeks I’m graduating… and…”
“Yes, what…?”
“I was thinking of moving back actually.”

I was filled with mixed feelings. On one hand, I was still angry with him. Angry because he left me. On the other hand, I had not forgotten. It became so obvious when we I heard his voice – I was never over him.
We spoke for a long time.

And when we hung up I had a date.
…
Hans was coming to town to look for a place to rent. Later on Saturday night we had decided to meet at the bistro.

Gosh, it felt lovely to have him close to me.

And I couldn’t stop looking at him.
He was hotter than ever before. Even though he came to our date in a tank top and shorts. (A meeting with a landlord had been longer than expected and he had planned to go to the hotel and change but I had persuaded him it wasn’t necessary)
I even actually liked watching him eating. His table manners can be discussed… I know…

But I was okay with it.
He followed me to the door that night. He insisted on being a true gentleman.

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Hans had to leave next day, and we couldn’t see each other for a whole week. Yes, we set up our next date almost at once. He texted me the very next day.
“I don’t want to go back. But I have to. When can I see you again?”
Next Saturday he didn’t have to stay in a hotel. He stayed with me.


But believe it or not, we spoke for hours. It was like he’d never been out of my life. He was still my best friend and he was so easygoing and funny.
We talked.
And we just lay there, holding each other.

Me made out.

“I’ve been thinking about you so much. Please forgive me, I love you. I love you.” he whispered.

I looked him straight in the eyes.
“Are you sure you love me?” I asked.
“Yes I am. I love you and I never want to leave you again.”
And that was all I wanted and needed to know there and then.